...just a stranger on the bus...

“What a terrible mistake to let go of something wonderful for something real."


Miranda July
No One Belongs Here More Than You



Everything is more complicated than you think. You only see a tenth of what is true. There are a million little strings attached to every choice you make; you can destroy
your life every time you choose. But maybe you won't know for twenty years. And you'll never ever trace it to its source. And you only get one chance to play it out. Just try and figure out your own divorce. And they say there is no fate, but
there is: it's what you create. Even though the world goes on for eons and eons, you are here for a fraction of a fraction of a second. Most of your time is spent being
dead or not yet born. But while alive, you wait in vain, wasting years, for a phone call or a letter or a look from someone or something to make it all right. And it never comes or it seems to but doesn't really. And so you spend your time in vague regret or vaguer hope for something good to come along. Something to make you feel connected, to make you feel whole, to make you feel loved.

And the truth is I'm so angry and the truth is I'm so fucking sad, and the truth is I've been so fucking hurt for so fucking long and for just as long have been
pretending I'm ok, just to get along, just for, I don't know why, maybe because no one wants to hear about my misery, because they have their own, and their own is too
overwhelming to allow them to listen to or care about mine.
Well, fuck everybody.

Amen.

Synedoche, New York
Charlie Kaufman




"Anything I ever learned comes down to something pretty simple: Don't anticipate life; meet it . When you try to anticipate, you're being an idiot, because nobody's got the brain to outwit nature. I'm talking here about patience, about believing in yourself. I'm talking here about having the courage to wait. You will get what you deserve."



Rod Steiger